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2021 Term 1 Poetry Roshi Susan Murphy

Three Angels

This poem by Adam Zagajewski was offered by Roshi Susan as part of a teisho given for Taking Part in the Gathering.

zen open circle · Three Angels – a poem by Adam Zagajewski

Suddenly three angels appeared
right here by the bakery on St George Street.
Not another census bureau survey,
one tired man sighed.

No, the first angel said patiently,
we just wanted to see
what your lives have become,
the flavour of your days and why
your nights are marked by restlessness and fear.

That’s right, fear, a lovely, dreamy-eyed
woman replied; but I know why.
The labours of the human mind have faltered.
They seek help and support
they can’t find. Sir, just take a look
– she called the angel ‘Sir’! –
at Wittgenstein. Our sages
and leaders are melancholy madmen
and know even less than us
ordinary people (but she wasn’t
ordinary).

Then too, said one boy
who was learning to play the violin, evenings
are just an empty carton,
a casket minus mysteries,
while at dawn the cosmos seems as
parched and foreign as a TV screen.
And besides, those who love music for itself
are few and far between.

Others spoke up and their laments
surged into a swelling sonata of wrath.
If you gentlemen want to know the truth,
one tall student yelled – he’d
just lost his mother – we’ve had enough
of death and cruelty, persecution, disease,
and long spells of boredom still
as a serpent’s eye. We’ve got too little earth
and too much fire. We don’t know who we are.
We’re lost in the forest, and black stars
move lazily above us as if
they were only our dream.

But still, the second angel mumbled shyly,
there’s always a little joy, and even beauty
lies close at hand, beneath the bark
of every hour, in the quiet heart of concentration,
and another person hides in each of us –
universal, strong, invincible.
Wild roses sometimes hold the scent
of childhood, and on holidays young girls
go out walking just as they always have,
and there’s something timeless
in the way they wind their scarves.
Memory lives in the ocean, in galloping blood,
in black, burnt stones, in poems,
and in every quiet conversation.
The world is the same as it always was,
full of shadows and anticipation.

He would have gone on talking, but the crowd
was growing larger and waves
of mute rage spread
until at last the envoys rose lightly
into the air, whence, growing distant,
they gently repeated: peace be unto you,
peace to the living, the dead, the unborn.
The third angel alone said nothing,
for that was the angel of long silence.

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2021 Term 1 Covid-19 Eco-Dharma Koans Online Zen Group Roshi Susan Murphy Talks Teachers

‘Medicine & Sickness’

Teisho #2 from Term 1 of Taking Part in the Gathering 2021. Click here to listen to other talks from this event.

Teacher: Roshi Susan Murphy
28 March 2021

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zen open circle · Medicine & Sickness
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2021 Term 1 Online Zen Group Poetry

In a Dark Time

By ~ Theodore Roethke

In a dark time, the eye begins to see,
I meet my shadow in the deepening shade;   
I hear my echo in the echoing wood—
A lord of nature weeping to a tree.
I live between the heron and the wren,   
Beasts of the hill and serpents of the den.

What’s madness but nobility of soul
At odds with circumstance? The day’s on fire!   
I know the purity of pure despair,
My shadow pinned against a sweating wall.   
That place among the rocks—is it a cave,   
Or winding path? The edge is what I have.

A steady storm of correspondences!
A night flowing with birds, a ragged moon,   
And in broad day the midnight come again!   
A man goes far to find out what he is—
Death of the self in a long, tearless night,   
All natural shapes blazing unnatural light.

Dark, dark my light, and darker my desire.   
My soul, like some heat-maddened summer fly,   
Keeps buzzing at the sill. Which I is I?
A fallen man, I climb out of my fear.   
The mind enters itself, and God the mind,   
And one is One, free in the tearing wind.

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2021 Term 1 Covid-19 Eco-Dharma Koans Online Zen Group Roshi Susan Murphy Talks Teachers

‘In a dark time, the eye begins to see.’

Teisho #1 from Term 1 of Taking Part in the Gathering 2021. Click here to listen to other talks from this event.

Teacher: Roshi Susan Murphy
14 March 2021

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zen open circle · In a dark time, the eye begins to see…
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Poetry Video

An interview with Ron C. Moss

For those who are interested in haiku (and beyond) this beautiful interview with Ron might be of interest. Ron is a longtime Zen student and practices with the Mountains and Rivers Zen Group in Hobart (etc!).

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2020 Term 3 Online Zen Group Words

Under the Skeleton Tree

By ~ Bonnie Nadzam
Note: This item was first published in Lion’s Roar here, and was mentioned in this dharma talk by Roshi Susan.


In the backyard where I grew up, there was a giant ash my sisters and I called the “Skeleton Tree.” This was because in summer, we repeatedly found bones around its roots—rib bones, chicken bones. It was trash dragged out by raccoons, likely, but we had no explanation for why it was always around the base of this tree. Naturally, the Skeleton Tree was the site of a ceremony we enacted every fall, just before Halloween. Each year, we checked in with each other periodically from the time we sensed autumn was in the air until the night we chose to do it. What were we checking in with? Some feeling in our own bones that it was autumn enough? At some point we’d all agree: it was time.

As a girl, I went to Catholic school. There was a rule at St. Ann’s that when you finished your assigned work, you’d clear off your desk, fold your hands before you, sit perfectly still, and meditate on the cross. There was a crucifix in every room. Thus you’d wait, eyes fixed on a dead or dying Christ, for everyone else to finish their work, too. Being a quick worker, I spent hours—hours and hours—of my childhood in this position, praying, trying to embody what it was to die, nailed to a cross, swinging across a chasm of wonder and terror, faith and doubt.

But there was something especially charged about navigating this space under the Skeleton Tree, under a wide-open sky as the light changed. Outside, there was no container, no cross. No desk to feel beneath your hands. No memorized prayer to revert to if you lost your way. This was the Skeleton Tree ritual, and like most of our girlhood games, it was simple, on its face: my sisters and I were to lie flat on our backs beneath the tree and die.

Halloween, or All Hallows’ Eve, was once a pagan ritual. Among the ancient folk, these Samhain and Calan Gaeaf celebrations signaled the start of a new year. I wonder, how did those people come by the wisdom to mark the beginning of the year on the very day that left the harvest behind—the very day that was on the threshold of darkness, coldness, and death? The Zen practitioner in me imagines that these people knew something that was altogether different from current Western ideas of a single birth and a single death as the fixed points in time marking the beginning and end of a human life. The “bad Christian” in me wonders how Christ’s death and resurrection relate to this mystery.

The year I was in the third grade might have been the last year we played dead beneath the Skeleton Tree. It was just before dinner—nearing dark. The tree stretched its bare, iron-limbed branches above us. There were rippled gray skies and golden leaves spinning on their stems. When it was over, we sat up to check in with each other: Did you die?

“I really did this time,” I said. “The person you’re talking to isn’t even the person who was here before.”

My older sister was skeptical. “Who are you then?”

“I don’t know,” I said. I was wonderstruck. “I don’t know! But I know I’ve never been here before.”

“What do you mean?”

“I have this feeling,” I said, and punctuated my words with each footstep as we walked across the yard toward the lit windows, hanging like yellow rectangles in the dark. “Just got here, just got here, just got here.”

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2020 Term 3 Covid-19 Koans Online Zen Group Roshi Susan Murphy Sensei Kynan Sutherland Talks Teachers

‘Moon in the churning waters’

Distinctly outstanding, the moon in the churning, rushing water.
Hsueh Tou

Talk #5 from Term 3 of our Online Zen Group for 2020. Click here for other talks in this series.

Teachers: Roshi Susan Murphy & Sensei Kynan Sutherland
8 November 2020

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zen open circle · Moon in the churning waters
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Poetry Sutras

Shantideva’s Prayer

May all beings everywhere,
Plagued by sufferings of body and mind,
Obtain an ocean of happiness and joy
By virtue of my merits.
May no living creature suffer,
Commit evil or ever fall ill.
May no one be afraid or belittled,
With a mind weighed down by depression.
May the blind see forms
And the deaf hear sounds.
May those whose bodies are worn with toil
Be restored on finding repose.
May the naked find clothing,
The hungry find food.
May the thirsty find water
And delicious drinks.
May the poor find wealth,
Those weak with sorrow find joy.
May the forlorn find hope,
Constant happiness and prosperity.
May there be timely rains
And bountiful harvests.
May all medicines be effective
And wholesome prayers bear fruit.
May all who are sick and ill
Quickly be freed from their ailments.
Whatever diseases there are in the world,
May they never occur again.
May the frightened cease to be afraid
And those bound be freed.
May the powerless find power
And may people think of benefiting each other.
For as long as space remains,
For as long as sentient beings remain,
Until then, may I too remain,
To dispel the misery of the world.

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Special Events

Spring Sesshin 2020

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Thank you to everyone who attended, and attended to, our recent sesshin. It was remarkable to practice with you all in this way, spread across space and time.

Recordings

Click here to listen to recordings from our Spring Sesshin 2020. This series includes not only the evening teisho’s, but also the encouragement talks, sutra reflections, and even a couple of surprises! (PS: You can also listen to a growing number of dharma talks in our library here.)

Mandalas

During sesshin, Susan and Kynan invited us to be present, right where we find ourselves, and see what might emerge, free from our thoughts about it. The invitation was to experience in writing, or in the form of a mandala, just what was emerging…  an invitation that is endlessly extended. Here are some of the beautiful, creative ways in which our worlds spoke directly with us.

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Koans Roshi Susan Murphy Sensei Kynan Sutherland Talks Teachers

‘A single grain of rice’

Teisho #4 from our Spring Sesshin 2020. Click here to listen to other talks from this event.

Teacher: Roshi Susan Murphy & Sensei Kynan Sutherland
6 October 2020

Note: This talk originally incorporated sections of interaction with the sesshin participants. Those sections have been removed in this publication.

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zen open circle · Teisho 4: One Grain of Rice